Been blog searching and had this urge to do something to my blog other than just posting photos without any words. Yes! Pictures paint a thousand words but some words still can do the trick. Oh ya, i stumbled upon JJ's blog and "accidentally" saw my name and something about me and the idea of perception and judgement.
This is not the first time people see me and ask me if im an ah beng. It had happened umpteen times and i am still not immune to it yet. I simply don't like the link there. It's ridiculous. And upon some deep thoughts, i realised such comments only sprout out during group interactions like camps and gatherings. So, taking RISCO Rovers Camp for example, of course, an a facilitator, i had to play clown and keep the group active. So, i cannot avoid talking and joking and i somehow concluded that it is such stuff that linked me to the notation of "ah beng".
In contrast, during term time, no one really labelled me as such because i hardly talk, dun even mention joke. Even if i joke and made everyone else laugh their arses off, it was milder than what happened in RISCO.
Maybe people do not know me very well. There are only a handful who do, like my close friends from secondary school and also some from jc. I have my weakness and strengths. People like it, people don't. I can accept it. But i just don't fancy the comment that everyone else makes about me. Bear with me.
JJ, Peiyu, Jeremy and i , we had a heart to heart talk after our geek party night and i guess somehow they finally know what kind of person i actually am. I think maybe peiyu was the first person who was so scared of my personality because i overheard her discussing about my character with the rest of the OG on the last night of the camp. I dun really blame her because we both sort of grew up in different environment (like schools and etc) and its inevitable and she thinks of me that way. I was very shocked when Peiwen thinks of me that way too. Who to blame? Maybe i really look and behave like one. But YOU should know im not by the end of this post.
Even if im an ah beng, im a different one. A few classes higher than the norm.
